note to someone

looking back i remembered

you said you want me

you said you will always need me

you said that you will never leave me

but now it's just a history

things have changed

I've tried to forget you once

it didn't work at all,i guess

so i decided to keep you in my mind

but not in my heart

i will find someone someday

the one who will win my heart like you did

maybe i can't won your heart

and someone else did

you've moved on ,why can't i ?

i will find that 'someone'

the one who can understand me

the one who can make me smile all the time

i know i needed time to find that someone

but someday later

you will see

maybe i will be more happier than you have ever thought

i am broke ,but i will show you how

how to stand up with my head high

this isn't the end

this is just the beginning

maybe it hurts when i saw you hanging out with you new GF

it feels like i want to slap you

but what can i do ?

i can't do anything,i just stood there

watching you walking with her

while you don't even realize that i am still alive

i don't know how long this will last

but i promise

i promise you that i can move on

i can,i know that

and you will see .........

without you

i just realized something .
something that can change my life .

i realized that i have to move on .
i mean like ,seriously .
i always said that i wanna move on , but i never did .
i can't ,it's painful .
but then i realized, i can't be like this untill i don't know when .
i HAVE to move on,really really move on
it's hard ,but i know i can do it , for my own good .
i have to leave the pain behind ,
to find more happines ,
to find more love ,
to find who i was supposed to be .

i know i can forget him .
i know that someday ,i'll find another guy who can understand me ,
but for now ,and forever ,
i gotta live my life ,,witout you .

broken-hearted

broken-hearted ? yeaah , sucks ,really sucks ,
i bet almost every teenagers in this world knows that feeling
i just knew it a month ago
and , i can still feel the pain right now

this boy, i know him a few months ago
i met him at a shopingtown
then we became friend on facebook
we started talking via facebook
then a week later,we started to text each other
until one day , we told each other we like each other
it's the best day of my life,this is the first time
our relationship,it went well ,we're not dating ,but ,yeaah we had 'something'
he always said " i miss you fe" ,or sweet things about me
he ALWAYS text me first, and he said some 'promise' to me
we had our first date a month after we admit we like each other
and i felt like i'm gonna pass out
i can't even discribe how i feel
and that's the moment where i finally realized that i don't like him anymore,
i LOVE him
i wish he felt the same way
but i'm wrong ,
about 3 months later ,he totally changed,he's not the old him
he's keeping a distance with me
i don't know whats going on ,i wanna ask him ,
but i'm to afraid to know what happened
i asked my friend for an advice , and she told me to ask him what happened
i don't have to be afraid ,and i CAN'T be afraid
because thing will getting worse if i don't know whats going on

so i decided to ask him after i think for a while
and guess what happened ?
he threw me away just like that and he had a girlfriend
my heart was broke,i don't know what to do

this is when i thought i made a mistake ,
i made a mistake by falling in love with a wrong person
but then i had another thought ,
i can learn things from my mistake

even though i was a BROKEN-HEARTED girl right now ,
life must go on, right ?
i have to move on and forget what happened

Junior High School

JHS is the exciting times to be remembered
this is where we grew up from a kid into a teenager
when we turns from a geeky into cool teens

the moment when i knew the meaning of FRIENDSHIP
the moment when i fell in LOVE
and the moment when my heart BROKE
i have learned lot of things
and yeah ,this is gonna be lifetime memories

i used to chat with my friends on the back of the class during free time
we ate some snack sometime
and sometime we play our iPod there
9C ,yeahh that's my class
i love my 9C sooo much and i LOVE my classmate too
the BEST class i have ever had !!!

i had 4 best-friend who always stick with me through hard times
one of them will be on the same school with me for SHS at St.Peter
and the other three ,they moved to SMAK
we hang out together ,
we talked about lot of things ,
we share our tears,smile

i will miss JHS for sure :"(

GRADUATION !!

thanks to GOD i finally graduated from Junior High School !!
OYEAH !!
it's a great feeling knowing that i was a SHS student now .
aaaaahh ,i'm a senior :D
i'm happy because my hard work finally paid off !!
after 3 years struggling with everything .
TryOuts ,Exam, HW ,and finally National Exam and School Exam .
but in the other side ,
i was pretty sad when i realized i can't meet my bestfriends or my friends :(

but after all,
YESTERDAY WAS THE BEST DAY AFTER ALL THESE 3 YEARS !!